I had a PET scan on Monday (25.7.11), probably the most thorough (and radioactive) as far as nuclear medicine goes. I have had 2 in the past, either side of a biopsy performed on a suspect lymph node taken from my neck as well. Nothing too concerning was found.
A doctor from the hospital called me on Wednesday and again on Thursday (26 & 27.7.11) to tell me they are looking at lymph nodes in my neck and they want to take one out to perform a biopsy. I go under the knife this Tuesday 2.8.11.
I have just had several blood tests and been to see a Rheumatologist, that along with a PET scan has got me thinking we might have some answers?
I apologise if I haven't come to see you since I got back from Europe on the 18.7.11, but as you can see along with, being a Father, 2 days of IVIG treatment, speaking at a youth-group in Mur'bah, turning up to work at Radio Lollipop, I have been too busy.
You may have to come and see me.
If something is found, it wont be good news, but also if something is found, it may give some answers?
I am trying not to get excited, anxious and a bit scared, because nothing may come of this too. This happened last time.
I got hopeful, everyone got hopeful and to be honest it's heartbreaking when you find out nothing. This illness playing one of it's sick jokes, letting me know again that it's grip on my life is absolute still.
I really hope this doesn't happen, the terrible sinking feeling, the hopeless depression is horrible. (See, me choosing not to rely on anti-depressant medication really makes these 'ups and downs' are physically and mentally draining).
Maybe you live with this feeling everyday? I do apologise for being inconsiderate, but also because this feeling is a horrible decay.
I know it well and have learnt to beat it/live with it. But face it all over again.
Stay tuned please, this story will continue.
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